Asking for Connection

Huh?

I dunno but today is one gloomy day! There is something that I am surely missing, but what is, I don't know.

I have just realized, it is really hard to act like you are one grown-up man because it is not really easy making decisions that, in one way or another, will affect my life. And to have nobody to ask for opinion? Hell... Okay, so maybe I am a tough guy who knows what he is doing, but won't you guys give me the slack of once in a while stumbling and yeah, you picking me up and drag my butt to that something I was so hopelessly running to?

You're a crap

It hurts my guts really to just try not throwing up with all the frustrations and stuff... This sounds too fag, but what the hell? I am really lost right now (hey have you noticed that every month, I seemed to be lost? LOL)


Connection... I guess that's what's lacking here... I seriously need someone to talk to... A guy/father figure, or an elder brother at the least, who would not be ashamed telling how shit I am doing and "dude you're one big mess" "fuck up you are disgusting" all those stuff that I really nee and end up listening to all the crap I might be pouring and tells you honest to the face how a dumb ass you are without any judgement and resentment, like "yeah you are a dumb ass, but whatcha gonna do about it?"

Yeah, yeah

So sick with all the expectations and all... So tired of the faces so condescending and all-shit!

Hear ye! hell yeah!

This Thing with Older Women

Okay, so there's something about older women that really turns me on. I dunno, maybe it's their aura telling you "hey boy, this mama has been through a lot" or "been here doing stuff evem before you were born." There's just something in them that really sets me on fire, figuratively of course.

This week I've been to see a movie but was a bit disappointed. Not much of a choice in Waltermart Pasong Tamo and to make the long story short, ended up with "You Again". Okay, so before you guys raise those eyebrows, I admit it is a chick flick and I should have not thought even of watching it. But tell you what, it's the most tolerable on the lot that I have to pick from. So yeah, I picked that, since I was really in need of place to go.

So there I was at the uppermost seat at the balcony, slightly shivering as there were so very few of us in the theatre and the aircon was on so high. But hell it was all worth it. Sigourney Weaver is soooooooo frickin' hot! And Jamie Lee Curtis too! I would have love to do a three-way with them, LOL. Kidding. I can't help but stare at the awesome that were Jamie and Sig.

I don't wanna sound sexist here. Haha. The last thing that I would have wanted was this site to be banned by Gabriella. Not that anybody reads bunch of crap I wrote in here but hey, who knows (wishful thinking). But yeah if I offended the ladies' sensiblities, pardon me I don't want to sound like some random dude wishing to get laid. This is more of a compliment to the ladies for being still hot despite the age.      

While I was on My Way to Makati

Supposedly, Nov 2 is holiday, I was accustomed bumming on the 2nd of Nov, thank you very much. But what the hell is happening in the world? I am here at the bus on my way to Makati! Haha, we have work tomorrow and I kind of  hate it because i was not able to enjoy my short vacation, very short indeed.

I was kind of observing people here inside and yeah, can't help but smile on the different personas here. Hmm i think imma do the description on my journal later tonight.

Okay, so on the 15th I am officially a bum once again, haha. What the fuck?! Ok, my note is filled with swear words and anyone who would come to read this pieve of shit might havr thought that i have a mouth filled with crap. Anyway back to the topic, yeah, so i am unemployed once again, haha it was kind of funny because i haven't seen myself on the process of doing the interviews-exam-other assessments all over again this soon. Haha feel such a loser. Kasi sobrang naging gahaman! Haha, anyway. Next time i will be wiser. Need to assess my would-be employer really good.

My project currently hangs in the cliff, can't seem to find my guts to write. So what's new? Haha but i have this something inside me that needs to be written. Siguro after BT, magkakaroon na ako ng time.

Off from bus. Heading home. 'Til next time pals, ciao!